So, um, I just got spanked by God.

No, I am not kidding.

You know those 'I love you so this is how it's going to be.' lectures that we get from God every so often? Yeah, I just got one of those.

I was talking to my aunt about a conversation she had with my sister earlier this morning. Before they hung up my sister said, "Jerry says he loves you and hello." My aunt responded with, "Tell him I said hi."

None of the family are really too fond of Jerry. He's abusive. He's a jerk. He's a drug-addict. He basically needs a lot of prayer.

I told my aunt, "Well, why didn't you tell him you love him back?". She said it was because she didn't love him. I told her that she had to love because the Bible said, so I quoted her the scripture where Jesus says something like, "How can you love me who you have not seen if you cannot love your brother who you have seen?"

She kind of sighed because she knew I was right. I was preaching too myself too.

So, then she asked if I did love him. I told her that I loved him in the Lord, which was just enough to get by. Then it happened.

I got spanked.

God immediatly said to me, "So, you love him in me, because that's just enough to get by? My love is just enough to get by?"

My first thoughts are, "Uh-oh, what have I done?" Then I immediatly apologized to God, and now I have to make sure that my heart gets turned into the heart of God.

I have to love like He loves. So, even though many people hurt him and hurt those that He loves, He still loves them the same and forgives them nonetheless.

Fleshly Erika is not happy at all. I don't even know if my spirit is happy about this, but I have to do this. I have to. It's all there in black and white, God's word. I have to.

"Love your enemies."

Ugh, why doesn't the Bible say how much you have to love your enemies?

Oh wait, nevermind, it does.

It speaks of God's unfailing love and says love as your Father in Heaven loves.

Grr
Grr
Grr

Yay for another battle. This may be the hardest one I've ever faced. Mucho prayers needed.